Embracing Motherhood

                Motherhood is a different journey. Different then any of the others anyone has ever been on. It takes so much of you but it completes you. It teaches you so many things.
                Motherhood takes strength. It takes time. It takes the whole of you. It's tough. It's all that and it's beautiful.
                  It's all of those moments when you think you're done with everything and it's all of those moments when you think it's just a beginning. It begins when you think everything is over. It begins when you think you can not do it anymore. It begins when you break down. It begins when you are at your wit's end. It begins when you are on the verge.
               It rises you up again and it makes you whole, complete. It gives you back all of your strength. I'd not have known this, if I wasn't a mother.
                If I was not a mother, I'd never have wiped a sticky smelly butt with so much love in my heart. If I was not a mother, I'd never have woken up, a hundred times a night and looked at a sleeping baby, just to make sure she's all okay and comfy in her sleep. If I was not a mother, I'd never have compromised on my hygiene and care, never slept in a puked-on PJ and letting go of oiling a my hair every once in a while.
                If I was not a mother, I'd never have slept odd hours and still be ready for the next day. If I was not a mother, I'd never have been so happy over a dirty nappy after days of little constipated tummy. If I was not a mother, I'd not ever have been so much happy that I'd burst crying with love and joy, over little steps, first words, first foods.
                If I was not a mother, I'd never have been happy over a dirty face, dirty table but a full tummy. If I was not a mother I'd never have been over joyed for a smile after a bad, cranky day. If I was not a mother, I'd never have felt the sparkle in the little eyes upon seeing me.
                If I was not a mother, I'd not have known that simple joys of life would bring immense tranquility in my heart and in my life.


Also, If I was not a mother, I could have blogged all of this last year when I actually wrote it. :)
                  

A Glimpse Through Momhood

                                    As I look back on my life, I see how quickly time changed and it changed me, with it. I remember once, time was all mine. Now, I run after it like a maniac and it still slips out of my hands so fast. Once I was a little girl, so care-free.Now I am a mother of a little girl myself. Responsibilities lie over my shoulder and it gets heavier each day. A new task, a new errand, a new milestone awaits as I wake up each day.
                                    Life after marriage and motherhood drastically changed me. It challenged me. I had to embrace everything along, with open mind and heart.
                                     It isn't so bad, but it is no doubt pretty tough. It is tough when people look up to you for their needs. All of a sudden, sometimes, it hits you, you have to be there, even when on some days, you don't want to be. You have to, for your people, you have to.
                                     Now, when I remember old times what I miss is the calmness I once had in my heart. I don't really have the same feeling anymore. My soul was calm, subtle. I had time. I had freedom. Now, I wait for the end of the day to have 5 minutes for myself as I lie on my bed.
                                      But this is life. This is how it gets along. My mum would have done the same and my daughter will do that too. This is how it works. Everything has it's perks. I enjoy little moments of serenity as I hug my little one close to my chest. I love it when she has that one particular look on her face that no one else gets. I get glimpses of love in her eyes. I didn't really understand love before I met my precious little daughter.
                                     Life is tough, quick and wonderful. I couldn't have known a better mum, husband or a better daughter. I wouldn't have it any other way!