Comeback or maybe a pop up out of no where post!

 Hello!

Greetings everyone! I have no idea where to start from. I am now in a different phase of life. Married, two babies. Life is a bliss and a chaos at the same time. My older girl is five and a half and son is two and a half year old Masha-Allah. 

I, myself am going to turn 28 in a few days. Whew! getting old LOL! I usually can't relate to  much that I have written back when I started writing. It is all so different now. The way life and it's dynamics are. I left blogging when I got married. I did it to give more time to family and home but now I somewhat regret doing that. I shouldn't have abandoned it altogether. Because when I left writing on this baby of mine, I left a part of myself behind. I miss that part of me where I used to have creative ideas, writing plans, goals of where to take my blog. I lost all that and I regret doing that. This was somewhat my identity. This place knew me like nobody else did. This place was the one I owned, completely. This was my one get away from the ugly world. I will make sure now, to come back here more often. Write all my sorrows and my joy here and turn away from the world for even a few minutes. 

I have learned very hard way, the world is cruel and ugly and if you trust them with more then they deserve, they will turn it against you in the brutal way possible. The faces are sweet and their realities are bitter. 
And that more often then you'd like, you're alone to fight those battles.

I am stuck in the whirlwind of responsibilities and duties. A little time to myself has become a necessity. I'd love if I could write more often, freely, like before. 

Till the next time we meet,

Goodbye, my little one, I still love this baby of mine.

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 Heeeelllllooooo Thereeeee!

Lol yes, I abandoned this baby because I got real human babies to take care of!

Yup I became a mama bear to two beautiful souls, for whom I could do anything at all.

Life is different, I am a completely different person now. I didn't quite know that. I have changed, no, more like I have evolved into a completely different being. I am more of a kickass now. ;)

I didn't realize that. That after the birth of my babies, I'd meet someone completely different, and that will be me, A Whole New Me.

My older one is turning 5 in a few months and her younger brother 2. Oh how over whelming it still is to think I have tiny humans of my own who depend upon me for everything.

Sometimes no me time and only their time stresses the hell out of me. I have now promised myself, no matter what I will be making a tiny bit of PRODUCTIVE time for myself too. The reason this 'productive' is such big fat word is because I have spent this me-time doing absolute-unavailing and purposeless activities.

For now I have just two things in mind:

* Write more on my blog/Facebook blog (yep I have one called advents of mommyhood, and I am shamelessly promoting it here.)

*Exercise. Yep. Gotta loose the tummy tyre. can't blame two cesareans anymore because they happened long ago. :p

A Glimpse Through Momhood

                                    As I look back on my life, I see how quickly time changed and it changed me, with it. I remember once, time was all mine. Now, I run after it like a maniac and it still slips out of my hands so fast. Once I was a little girl, so care-free.Now I am a mother of a little girl myself. Responsibilities lie over my shoulder and it gets heavier each day. A new task, a new errand, a new milestone awaits as I wake up each day.
                                    Life after marriage and motherhood drastically changed me. It challenged me. I had to embrace everything along, with open mind and heart.
                                     It isn't so bad, but it is no doubt pretty tough. It is tough when people look up to you for their needs. All of a sudden, sometimes, it hits you, you have to be there, even when on some days, you don't want to be. You have to, for your people, you have to.
                                     Now, when I remember old times what I miss is the calmness I once had in my heart. I don't really have the same feeling anymore. My soul was calm, subtle. I had time. I had freedom. Now, I wait for the end of the day to have 5 minutes for myself as I lie on my bed.
                                      But this is life. This is how it gets along. My mum would have done the same and my daughter will do that too. This is how it works. Everything has it's perks. I enjoy little moments of serenity as I hug my little one close to my chest. I love it when she has that one particular look on her face that no one else gets. I get glimpses of love in her eyes. I didn't really understand love before I met my precious little daughter.
                                     Life is tough, quick and wonderful. I couldn't have known a better mum, husband or a better daughter. I wouldn't have it any other way!
 

From A Mother, To Another!

With all it's beginings,
Life began,
After so many years,
Life began,
So many firsts,
So many lasts,
Life began,
Time is precious,
Time is fast,
This will all go by,
before I know,
Then I'll remember, years ago,
Life Began,
I'll remember all the firsts,
I'll remember all the lasts,
I'll remember the journey,
and all it's days,
When times were tough,
When times didn't move,
When times were happy,
On a roller coaster ride,
And I'll say to myself,
Oh how beautifully,
My life began!





                       This ladies and gentlemen, is a small way of announcing that my journey as mother began about 6 months ago and really, life began, when I welcomed my precious little daughter in this world!

                      The journey from a woman to a mother changed me 360°. Little did I know, I'll not only fall in love with my daughter all that much but I'll love my own mum like I've never loved before.




                       To my mum I'd say, Thankyou Ammi! Thank you for raising me the right way despite of all that you went through! Times had been tough, You and I both suffered, we went through so much, but in the end, storms passed, skies cleared, rainbow did shine down on us!
                      Soon after, we lost our hero, but I because of you and you because of me, stood firm and cleared the test. Because of you, I am here. I couldnt have done that without you.
                      Thank you Ammi, for raising me the way I'd want to raise my daughter. You set the standards, You built the foundations. You made it easier, happier. I've never seen a woman as strong as you! Thank You Ammi, for all the love. Thank You Ammi, for being my rock, even now!



                       And as I cry, typing all of this, I am sure my siblings feel the same way! Ammi, we're all humble and Thankful to you for all the struggles you went through with raising us and making us who we are today! We love you to the moon and back!