Thursday, 13 October 2016

A Glimpse Through Momhood

                                    As I look back on my life, I see how quickly time changed and it changed me, with it. I remember once, time was all mine. Now, I run after it like a maniac and it still slips out of my hands so fast. Once I was a little girl, so care-free.Now I am a mother of a little girl myself. Responsibilities lie over my shoulder and it gets heavier each day. A new task, a new errand, a new milestone awaits as I wake up each day.
                                    Life after marriage and motherhood drastically changed me. It challenged me. I had to embrace everything along, with open mind and heart.
                                     It isn't so bad, but it is no doubt pretty tough. It is tough when people look up to you for their needs. All of a sudden, sometimes, it hits you, you have to be there, even when on some days, you don't want to be. You have to, for your people, you have to.
                                     Now, when I remember old times what I miss is the calmness I once had in my heart. I don't really have the same feeling anymore. My soul was calm, subtle. I had time. I had freedom. Now, I wait for the end of the day to have 5 minutes for myself as I lie on my bed.
                                      But this is life. This is how it gets along. My mum would have done the same and my daughter will do that too. This is how it works. Everything has it's perks. I enjoy little moments of serenity as I hug my little one close to my chest. I love it when she has that one particular look on her face that no one else gets. I get glimpses of love in her eyes. I didn't really understand love before I met my precious little daughter.
                                     Life is tough, quick and wonderful. I couldn't have known a better mum, husband or a better daughter. I wouldn't have it any other way!

Teach Me

Lead me to your dreams,
Your bliss in the beautiful place,
Your treats of wonderlust,
Your astounding world of harmony,
Take me then to the secret chamber,
Teach me how to do it,
How to forget all the miseries,
How to control my mind,
How to go,
How to move,
To your amazing tomorrow-land!

Wednesday, 8 June 2016

From A Mother, To Another!

With all it's beginings,
Life began,
After so many years,
Life began,
So many firsts,
So many lasts,
Life began,
Time is precious,
Time is fast,
This will all go by,
before I know,
Then I'll remember, years ago,
Life Began,
I'll remember all the firsts,
I'll remember all the lasts,
I'll remember the journey,
and all it's days,
When times were tough,
When times didn't move,
When times were happy,
On a roller coaster ride,
And I'll say to myself,
Oh how beautifully,
My life began!

                       This ladies and gentlemen, is a small way of announcing that my journey as mother began about 6 months ago and really, life began, when I welcomed my precious little daughter in this world!

                      The journey from a woman to a mother changed me 360°. Little did I know, I'll not only fall in love with my daughter all that much but I'll love my own mum like I've never loved before.

                       To my mum I'd say, Thankyou Ammi! Thank you for raising me the right way despite of all that you went through! Times had been tough, You and I both suffered, we went through so much, but in the end, storms passed, skies cleared, rainbow did shine down on us!
                      Soon after, we lost our hero, but I because of you and you because of me, stood firm and cleared the test. Because of you, I am here. I couldnt have done that without you.
                      Thank you Ammi, for raising me the way I'd want to raise my daughter. You set the standards, You built the foundations. You made it easier, happier. I've never seen a woman as strong as you! Thank You Ammi, for all the love. Thank You Ammi, for being my rock, even now!

                       And as I cry, typing all of this, I am sure my siblings feel the same way! Ammi, we're all humble and Thankful to you for all the struggles you went through with raising us and making us who we are today! We love you to the moon and back!

Monday, 30 May 2016

As I watch you grow!

As I watch you grow,
I see your beautiful soul,
I realize time is slipping by,
Faster then I ever imagined,
I remember youwere so little,
Fitting perfectly in my arms,
All you could do was cry and look around,
Once I blinked,
& here you are,
All grown up,
So far away,
Going places,
Doing things,
How I wish,
I could still be with you,
Hug you like before,
& We'd burst laughing,
Over a crazy stupid thing,
How I wish,
I could relive that time,
As I watch you grow!

Happy 4th my little boy! Hope you have a wonderful life ahead!

Friday, 11 December 2015

Isn't it odd?

Isn't it odd? To have to say goodbye,
Isn't it odd? To then feel your heart going away,
Isn't it odd? To look at all the memories with blurry eyes,
Isn't it odd? To have to make yourself understand, the pain is inevitable,
Isn't it odd? To watch the memories grow stronger and stronger as you cry,
Isn't it odd? To never speak a word as you embrace to a painful goodbye,
Isn't it odd? To say goodye, but never feel distant!

Monday, 9 November 2015


In the entirety of sanity,
In complete faith,
In utter belief,
In all my senses,
With hopes of rainbows,
With thoughts of joys,
All moments; splendid,
All minutes; divine,
My heart beats,
To the rythem of your breaths,
My soul captures,
Every second spent with you,
And in solace do I find,
All that I need, want and love,
Is You.

Wednesday, 7 October 2015

A Small Catching up

Assalam O Alaikum and Greetings,
                                                         How have you folks been? What is happening? My life is busy as a bee, now that I have a fixed routine and married life. Husband dropped me at my Ma's so here I am, writing something finally!
                                                         I realized the preciousness of this place after I got married. Whenever I come here, I literally become a bear. Since there ain't any routine here, I sleep in when ever I want to, eat the whole day, wear the most ridiculous clothes I can. I spent 21 years of my life here and at times, I still miss this place even though it's been long enough to be used to my actual home! I guess a piece of my heart still lives here!
                                                        Home although will always be the place where I now live, with my new family, that will always be my place. Home has a renewed meaning after marriage.