Perfect

Don't you listen to them darlin'
Don't you care,
Because all those voices,
All those noises,
They're scared of you,
Chanting so loud but,
They're scared of you,
Scared of how you get right back up,
Scared of how calmly you deal with it,
Scared of how gracefully you handle their mess,
Scared of what happened was the total opposite of what they thought,
Scared that they couldn't take over you,
Scared of your beautiful strengths,
Scared of your heroic courage,
Scared that you rose above all,
And you, Oh You!
You are amazing,
A wonderful riddle,
A mesmerizing sight,
A precious piece of nature's art,
A striking strength,
You are perfect,
Do you hear that,
You are perfect, just the way you are!

Hopes, Omens and Amusements

Assalam O Alaikum and greetings!
                                                        How are you all doing? I am doing great. I am in Saudi Arabia these days and this is an amazing place truely. A pictorial tour might come to your end when I go back to Karachi, Pk in august. As for now, I am enjoying my time here.
                           The thing that influences me most are words. Words spoken or written are very influential though in my case written words are huge and important. Usually when I cant communicate something directly, I'd write it down for that person and you guys actually have seen that example here on the blog. I read the book Alchemist By Paulo Coehlo long time ago and Omens were discussed profusely in it. Now I am experiencing this strangely amazing thing, I am thinking a negative aspect in my mind or I am feeling dishearted or low, somehow words, strangthening-words show up, somehow they do. It is someone's whatsapp profile picture, A verse from Quran on facebook, a quote picture on facebook or just somehow words pop up and it's just so... strange and.. beautiful. One example that I could tell you all is I keep a really small paper below my mobile cover and my cover is transparent so I can actually see the paper beneath it easily. I write things to myself that I think if I ever read would give me positivity, some people call me crazy for doing this. The line I wrote on that paper is: 'Tomorrow will be yours... Don't give up'. I'd lost that paper when I came here. Now I was thinking how I try getting over one bad thing and the second comes up and how I am just tackling it and stuff and I look at the floor and I see this paper which has these words: 'Tomorrow will be yours... Don't give up' It's the same piece of paper I thought I lost. And I am JUST AMUSED. I am awe-struck wondering Has this been happening since forever or am I so late to notice? Anyways I picked my paper up stuck it under my cover again. See, the thing is Never lose hope. I know in my heart, God Almighty has been sending those good omens, letting me know, He knows and understands. I feel blessed, Alhumdulillah! & fellows this is just one example I have given you, there are numerous happening that I don't even remember.
                                I know, things happen, you loose people, you fail at things, alot of stuff goes crazy bad, but hey, dont lose hope! Times will change, things will get better, they might never be the same again, but they will be okay. Perfect just comes once!
I know I got a lot of catching up to do with you all and I am sorry I interact alot less then I used to. I litterally find it hard to share things now, which is odd. I dont know how but during this last paragraph something bumped into my mind. You all writers out there know, when you are writing something, you have a specific tone, voice for it and then somebody is reading something written by you and they are not reading it like that and you go thinking in your mind: Man! They got it wrong!! LOL It happens with me. I write something and I read it in one particular way and then someone else reads it in entirely different way and I say to myself: They killed my thing!!
Anndddd this brings me to thinking if you even got my joke or not!
                             Alot of times I try being cooler and think of scheduling my posts but as soon as I write one I just can not wait to throw it out there and get y'all's reviews on it and the page views and stuff! I don't even know if it's 'cooler' to schedule a post or not.. Err.. I just wrote it, just like that!


I guess I talked alot. So for now, I am going away. Hey! Ramadan is appraoching, So Ramadan Mubarak\Ramadan Kareem to all my Muslim fellows out there. I hope and pray you all make most of it and get great rewards for all your deeds and get to enjoy a fabulous Eid! Don't forget to pray for the Ummah,specially for the Ummah in trouble (Palestine, Kashmir and others).


May ALLAH grant us all Emaan!

I am still here

Assalam O Alaikum And Greetings,
                                               So Sorry to have been away for such a long time, I just don't feel like sharing anymore. Times have changed, so has my perspective about a lot of things.

I have not been writing lately, not even in my personal diary anymore. I just cant feel the same way about it. Before, writing used to give me peace and comfort. It was a way I could let my inner storms out, now, its all different. It seems like writing is no more able to give me what I want, my inner storms are so deep inside I cant find a way to let them out, they are etched within and I am not really able to find a passage to let them out. But it doesn't mean this blog means anything less to me. This blog made me able to do and think what I could not have otherwise. This place has a magic of its own and nobody else will ever be able to understand. This blog is my baby and it means a lot to me!!

Life after October has been harder then any part of me could imagine. There's been happy moments too, yes, but incomplete. Every happiness, every occasion, every event is incomplete. Just when I started thinking my life is perfect, everything became imperfect forever. From that day on, I am and will never be able too label any event or any thing as 'perfect'. The word is long gone from my dictionary.

But I am happy, at least everything is visible through dreams. This is all I have now.. This is all I will ever have from now on.

I told my Teacher!

Assalam O Alaikum And Greetings!
                                         How are you guys?
I wanted to share something with you guys! You know what!? I went to my teacher's office and I ASKED HER MYSELF IN PERSON TO READ MY BLOG AND READ MY POST. It's a big deal people, It's a BIG deal.
It took me alot of courage to do that. I am a shy person. I roamed around her office for like 1 hour and tried to talk to her like 12 times but ended up returning back to the benches outside. Yes, I know, I am a chicken. But finally I did get brave enough to go ask her. I wanted it to be anonymous.. since she does'nt know me by my first name before saying it to her I messaged her on facebook, but she could'nt reply or visit the page. So me being impatient as ever, today, I talked to her. So... My letter does'nt get to be anonymous letter. But she is going to read it and that's actually what matters!
She smiled entire time I talked to her! She is so nice. She is such a wonderful person. I am so blessed to be her student and I am sooooo thankful for it. :') My day has been Amazing! :')
I smiled the entire way home! and one woman even eyed me suspiciously if I was smiling at a guy or something! :D hahaaa!! 
After I talked to her, I was literally shivering, butterflies in my stomach... what not! I wish she finds time to read the actual post on my blog!
For those of you who don't know what I posted for my teacher can see it here: My tribute to her

A Tiny attempt of saying Thankyou and you Rock!

Assalam O Alaikum and Greetings!
How have you folks been? I am so sorry for not wishing you Ramadans and Eid and 14 August... There had plenty of things getting done this summer. I could not write anything.

Beginning with a sorry.. I wanted to share a letter with you all. I wrote it for my teacher in my college a few months ago and I never gave it to her or even thought of doing that. It took me ALOT of courage to ask her to read this. I will be typing in EXACTLY how I wrote. I won't edit but may add up few things. It is dedicated to her and one more amazing teacher who was in my school who inspired me for Hijab.

It's a Thankyou letter. I wanted to let her know in words that all she does is acknowledged and very much appreciated. That she is a wonderful person. That I and others look up to her.

It is a written tribute to her for doing all that she does. It is a Tribute to the BEST TEACHER in the World! 

Here it goes:



Dear  Respected Ms,
                                I know, this crazy stupid letter of mine will never get through, I'll still write though. To satisfy my heart I will.Anyway, You are one of the few teachers I look up to. You are one of the few people in my life whom I have come across and instantly developed extreme respect and love in my heart. You are the person I want to be. Your footsteps will be my guiding stars, your acts will be my way of life. I hope one day, I could gather so much courage and tell you all this.
                               I am that one crazy Crazy girl, who, when you enter the class, stands up and starts literally starts to clap ( slowly though! :) ). I am that one girl who would always follow your sayings. I am that one crazy girl who bears alot, literally ALOT of respect and admiration and love... and well I am out of words here.
                   You are my role model. You are my Inspiration. You are who I want to be. You are simply outstanding and the best! I wish I could be like you. I wish I could be a good example for others. I wish I could be like you and Become a reason for people around to do good and be good. I so wish I could be like you.
         I hope, that one day, when I reach somewhere in my life, I'll atleast try becoming that mother that you are to all of us, I'll try becoming the mentor for people around me like you are, I'll try becomg a good omen for someone, I'll try becoming a good achiever like you are, I'll try becoming the reason for everyone's smile-lit faces  like you are.
                   Thankyou, thank you for being so generous and so amazing. Thank you for being a mother, a teacher, a mentor, a guiding star, a pillar of awesome-ness (sorry that's me being a typical teenager here) and everything else that you are. Thankyou from the depth of my heart, for being YOU!
                                                                                                                                     Your insane student,
                                                                                                                             of final year, KPGDCW
                                                                                                                                          7/4/2013


And I do not expect a lot to happen, just a smile across your kind face.