So Sorry to have been away for such a long time, I just don't feel like sharing anymore. Times have changed, so has my perspective about a lot of things.
I have not been writing lately, not even in my personal diary anymore. I just cant feel the same way about it. Before, writing used to give me peace and comfort. It was a way I could let my inner storms out, now, its all different. It seems like writing is no more able to give me what I want, my inner storms are so deep inside I cant find a way to let them out, they are etched within and I am not really able to find a passage to let them out. But it doesn't mean this blog means anything less to me. This blog made me able to do and think what I could not have otherwise. This place has a magic of its own and nobody else will ever be able to understand. This blog is my baby and it means a lot to me!!
Life after October has been harder then any part of me could imagine. There's been happy moments too, yes, but incomplete. Every happiness, every occasion, every event is incomplete. Just when I started thinking my life is perfect, everything became imperfect forever. From that day on, I am and will never be able too label any event or any thing as 'perfect'. The word is long gone from my dictionary.
But I am happy, at least everything is visible through dreams. This is all I have now.. This is all I will ever have from now on.