Embracing Motherhood

                Motherhood is a different journey. Different then any of the others anyone has ever been on. It takes so much of you but it completes you. It teaches you so many things.
                Motherhood takes strength. It takes time. It takes the whole of you. It's tough. It's all that and it's beautiful.
                  It's all of those moments when you think you're done with everything and it's all of those moments when you think it's just a beginning. It begins when you think everything is over. It begins when you think you can not do it anymore. It begins when you break down. It begins when you are at your wit's end. It begins when you are on the verge.
               It rises you up again and it makes you whole, complete. It gives you back all of your strength. I'd not have known this, if I wasn't a mother.
                If I was not a mother, I'd never have wiped a sticky smelly butt with so much love in my heart. If I was not a mother, I'd never have woken up, a hundred times a night and looked at a sleeping baby, just to make sure she's all okay and comfy in her sleep. If I was not a mother, I'd never have compromised on my hygiene and care, never slept in a puked-on PJ and letting go of oiling a my hair every once in a while.
                If I was not a mother, I'd never have slept odd hours and still be ready for the next day. If I was not a mother, I'd never have been so happy over a dirty nappy after days of little constipated tummy. If I was not a mother, I'd not ever have been so much happy that I'd burst crying with love and joy, over little steps, first words, first foods.
                If I was not a mother, I'd never have been happy over a dirty face, dirty table but a full tummy. If I was not a mother I'd never have been over joyed for a smile after a bad, cranky day. If I was not a mother, I'd never have felt the sparkle in the little eyes upon seeing me.
                If I was not a mother, I'd not have known that simple joys of life would bring immense tranquility in my heart and in my life.


Also, If I was not a mother, I could have blogged all of this last year when I actually wrote it. :)
                  

Do You Dare

Do you dare, counting the stars,
While all you do is look at the moon?
Do you dare to crack open a smile,
While all you want to do is frown?
Do you dare to look at the glory,
While all you watch is a mess?
Do you dare to look at the change?
While all you see is consistency?
Do you dare to feel the warmth,
While all you do is curse the sun?
Do you dare to feel the magic,
While all you do is pass the minutes?
Do you dare?
No, you don't.
Because you're frightened of beauty.
You're frightened of the strengths.
But may be one day.
You'll look past your fears. 

Perfect

Don't you listen to them darlin'
Don't you care,
Because all those voices,
All those noises,
They're scared of you,
Chanting so loud but,
They're scared of you,
Scared of how you get right back up,
Scared of how calmly you deal with it,
Scared of how gracefully you handle their mess,
Scared of what happened was the total opposite of what they thought,
Scared that they couldn't take over you,
Scared of your beautiful strengths,
Scared of your heroic courage,
Scared that you rose above all,
And you, Oh You!
You are amazing,
A wonderful riddle,
A mesmerizing sight,
A precious piece of nature's art,
A striking strength,
You are perfect,
Do you hear that,
You are perfect, just the way you are!

I look back

Today...
Today I stop, I look back...
I see the long road that I have walked,
The paths I have crossed,
 
I see
The thorns that bled my feet,
The petals that were soft beneath,

I see,
Excruciating pain in my heart,
A smile on my face,

I see,
My soul drowning in distress,
My body jumping with cheerfulness,

I see,
So many things,
Disappointments, troubles, aches, hurts,
Heartbreaks, sorrows, misery, dejections,

I see,
Life, death, nothingness,

I see,
Strength, power and prayers,


I also see,
Happiness, joy, love, tranquility,
Memories, beauty, wonder, delights