.

All are requested to recite Surah Fatiha for my father whose soul departed from this world last tuesday. Rest in Peace, father, I know you're in a better place now!

To You, With Love And Respect, Me.

That smile of yours sweeps my feet away,
Your hug, like an assurance of being safe,
Your eyes that hold so much love,
Are like diamonds shining bright,
The way you walk,
Feels like a definition of grace,
The way you talk,
Feels like a melody so sweet,
No matter, how much I try,
Thankyou won't ever be enough,
For, everything you do is way too special,
And talk about paybacks?
That is'nt even possible!




This is a dedication to a person, who is generous, gracious and kind, who I love and admire and respect ALOT, who has a HUGE importance in my life. And As I have said.. Thankyou will never be enough. Today was special, Alhumdulillah!

Story of September

Assalam O alaikum and Greetings Everyone!
                     I know I have been away for so many days, I am so busy right now! Haunted by finals, but I have had alot of fun too! I have enjoyed September and October ALOT-
So let me tell you the list of things I got to do and that made me happy as a bee:

• Mid-night birthday chants

• A bouquet 

• Wishes coming true

• Lunch TWICE with the best friends 

• Shopping with buddies

• Magical, magical, totally amazing blessed hugs!!! 

• Favourite person on earth appreciating the deeds

• A surprise gift!

• Cakes

•  Baby girl born to a great friend!

•  Bought shoesssss!! (I love buying shoes)

•  Planned some great stuff with best friend

 And I stay in the happy bubble foreverrrr.. So it's pretty much Still new and I still have those same tingly happy feelings! Ahh Thankyou God for all of this and everything else!

My finals are near and I am dreading them. Also I have had the last day of my college and it was weird going out of that door and knowing you're never going to do this again the same way. I will be having my farewell soon too. As much as I am hating to leave the college I can proudly say I have had totally amazing years here and I have made moments memorable. Specially in the last year I did everything I wanted to do. I have a crazy best friend who was there in everything I did. I enjoyed and loved those moments.

Today was perfect.

It's little things that make your world perfect.

Dear, Best Friend I wish everything remains perfect in your life, for you, for me and for us. <3
And I also wish, those beautiful feelings will remain same, forever.

How do you all Vent out? Make your frustrations go away? Make your brain start to work again? Tell your heart it ain't a big deal?
Just tell me, How do you do that?

Words

Words, phrases, sentences...
Made of simply some alphabets and spaces.
Yet, so powerful, so huge, making a difference.
Words, making you
Words, breaking you
Words, cheerful ones
Words, stabbing your heart
Words, having so many dimensions to them
Words, having so many different meanings
Words, making your day
Words, breaking your heart
Words, that are heard
Words, left unsaid...

Blessed Life!

Nothing better then bunking chemistry class and sneaking off to the canteen and eating LOTS of junk with your best friend and in the end, giving the last bite to your best friend because you are too full to even breathe!
Life is a bliss, Alhumdulillah!!

Never-Land By Ridx!

Take me to Neverland. 

Hello everyone. I am not really fond of writing guest posts. In fact, this is the first time I am writing the guest post. Here I am because Rafya insisted me to write one for her and above all, she is an awesome adorable person and a good friend of mine. There you go!

I don't want to grow up.

I hope you understand that this world is a messy place and sometimes I can't help about thinking of growing up which gives me goose bumps. Even the idea of getting into a university - about which I was quite passionate about sounds creepy to me. All I want to do is cuddle in my mum's arms and feel infinitely secure.

I want to resign so bad from the overwhelming burden of being an adult.

I declare a break from drooling over grey's anatomy and get back to Cinderella, Mulan and Powerpuff Girls.

I am shunning my course books and engrossing myself in story books.

No champagne, Chocolate Milk is the only drink I am going to gulp down.

Enough of the dieting plan (Well I never had a dieting plan. Just pretending to have one) and counting calories,  I am going to devour pizza, chocolate coated strawberries, pineapples with whipped cream, and all the healthy and happy stuff.

Screw the phone, hotmail and facebook, I am considering to scribble a diary with an inked leaf.

I am going to Blow bubbles and scatter the balloons all over the room.

Instead of a Big Mac, I am going to buy myself a happy meal.

I want to play hide and seek and buy heaps of candies.

Help me, Peter Pan?

Pretty Please, Take me to Never land.

Yours sincerely,

Dreamer, A child trying to survive in the world of grown-ups.

* * * * *







Fellow people, Ridx, my truly AMAZING friend wrote this gust post for me. I love this and In between these lines I find my self yearning for those very same things! Ridx is a totally awesome friend, you guys MUST check her blog out.. She writes at Miss Ridx.
She writes some cool things and her pictorial stories of how she spent her time are truly adorable. 
Thankyou Ridx for this favour, Hopefully soon, I'll be doing same for you!! And dude, you're love! <3 I totally appreciate you for doing this for me while you're so busy!

Happiness Overloaded.

Assalam O Alaikum and Greetings!

These are the pictures of my Birthday. It was on the fourth. If you ask me how my birthday went, I'd say it was way beyond Perfect, Alhumdulillah! The most special thing was I got a wish and hug from the favorite person in the world. I got to hang out with my best friends. Laughed, enjoyed and loved.

Wishes coming true...

LOVE!

Party Popper!

Later I did this with the bouquet!

Oh I love gifts ;)

Look! Google wished me too!

Hugs!

I do not own this picture.

And A hug From Someone really very Special Is not just a good medicine, It's a magic! <3

Dream, Magic, Fairytale... Thankyou Teacher, for all of that!

Assalam O Alaikum and Greetings!
                                               Wow.. this has been FANTASTIC weekend and start of yet another fantastic week. I got my teacher, Dr. Fakhrun-nisa to read my letter and she commented on two times and then in front of whole class, she said thankyou and she clapped for me and she hugged me and well...
It was a fairytale, I am still stuck in it!
I mean she commented on it and then she revisited to check if I'd read it or not. She is so NICE! I mean who really cares that much, I am just another student of her class but she did give me importance, she appreciated me and made me feel special. Thankyou, A HUGE thankyou to her for doing all of that.
I was WONDERSTRUCK. I am.
It was all like a dream and it was all So magical. Now I really actually know what magic is!
That moment when she hugged me, when she held my hand and said good things should be shared and when she clapped for me in the class, with the whole class room clapping for me as well, It was all magic. Amazing magic.

I really hope it's just a beginning to something wonderful.

And now I truly believe everything happens for a reason. I did not wanted to go to this college but I had to. Now I know why I had to.

Thankyou For Doing all of this. I am SO honoured! I feel so lucky and blessed and.. Thankful to my GOD and To My Teacher for taking all of this so seriously and not treating it like just another thing. Thankyou for believing in me and appreciating me.Thankyou for the kind words you said in the class. I know I am so bad at expressing myself in person. So, words are here on this place that might express a tiny bit of what I feel. Thankyou!



Hope She visits this place again! :')



A HUGE Thankyou to my Best Friends for continously listening to my extra-excited-over-obsessed stories.
I know it would have all been so incomplete if I did not have you to listen to me while I could not distingiush between my own emotions! Thankyou for being there... Even though I do not thankyou guys enough and I am really not a humble person with you. So, thankyou for bearing me with those butterflies in my stomach stories! Ms. Khan And Ms. Zuberi thankyou very much.







Anddd on totally another note, I am enjoying my last day as a teenager *winks* :D

Tonight's Thoughts

I know you all must probably be hating me for going on about this one same thing and the stupid small one lined posts. Excuse me. I am on a roller-coaster-too-much-excited-overly-obsessed-mode... But I hope to never come out of it, you all dearies will have to cope with it.

I think some people can make a huge difference in your life, probably even you would'nt have imagined how huge a difference can they make until they actually do...

I think some people are specially born and sent into the world to be angel for those around.

I think all I should be really doing is have gratitude and lots of respect in my heart.

Thankful For Today!

Today will be remembered in great words for the rest of days that come in my life.

I told my Teacher!

Assalam O Alaikum And Greetings!
                                         How are you guys?
I wanted to share something with you guys! You know what!? I went to my teacher's office and I ASKED HER MYSELF IN PERSON TO READ MY BLOG AND READ MY POST. It's a big deal people, It's a BIG deal.
It took me alot of courage to do that. I am a shy person. I roamed around her office for like 1 hour and tried to talk to her like 12 times but ended up returning back to the benches outside. Yes, I know, I am a chicken. But finally I did get brave enough to go ask her. I wanted it to be anonymous.. since she does'nt know me by my first name before saying it to her I messaged her on facebook, but she could'nt reply or visit the page. So me being impatient as ever, today, I talked to her. So... My letter does'nt get to be anonymous letter. But she is going to read it and that's actually what matters!
She smiled entire time I talked to her! She is so nice. She is such a wonderful person. I am so blessed to be her student and I am sooooo thankful for it. :') My day has been Amazing! :')
I smiled the entire way home! and one woman even eyed me suspiciously if I was smiling at a guy or something! :D hahaaa!! 
After I talked to her, I was literally shivering, butterflies in my stomach... what not! I wish she finds time to read the actual post on my blog!
For those of you who don't know what I posted for my teacher can see it here: My tribute to her

Of Emotions that are shown and that are hidden...

Those green eyes, Those green eyes with so many emotions..
Emotions running like colors thrown across the canvas
And colors... Ah those colors! Those dull and dark and mysterious colors
And the face.. The face told another story
The face was as happy as anything!
The face was cheerful and joyous as ever...
Oh and the heart... The heart was long gone...
Just vanished into thin air...

A Tiny attempt of saying Thankyou and you Rock!

Assalam O Alaikum and Greetings!
How have you folks been? I am so sorry for not wishing you Ramadans and Eid and 14 August... There had plenty of things getting done this summer. I could not write anything.

Beginning with a sorry.. I wanted to share a letter with you all. I wrote it for my teacher in my college a few months ago and I never gave it to her or even thought of doing that. It took me ALOT of courage to ask her to read this. I will be typing in EXACTLY how I wrote. I won't edit but may add up few things. It is dedicated to her and one more amazing teacher who was in my school who inspired me for Hijab.

It's a Thankyou letter. I wanted to let her know in words that all she does is acknowledged and very much appreciated. That she is a wonderful person. That I and others look up to her.

It is a written tribute to her for doing all that she does. It is a Tribute to the BEST TEACHER in the World! 

Here it goes:



Dear  Respected Ms,
                                I know, this crazy stupid letter of mine will never get through, I'll still write though. To satisfy my heart I will.Anyway, You are one of the few teachers I look up to. You are one of the few people in my life whom I have come across and instantly developed extreme respect and love in my heart. You are the person I want to be. Your footsteps will be my guiding stars, your acts will be my way of life. I hope one day, I could gather so much courage and tell you all this.
                               I am that one crazy Crazy girl, who, when you enter the class, stands up and starts literally starts to clap ( slowly though! :) ). I am that one girl who would always follow your sayings. I am that one crazy girl who bears alot, literally ALOT of respect and admiration and love... and well I am out of words here.
                   You are my role model. You are my Inspiration. You are who I want to be. You are simply outstanding and the best! I wish I could be like you. I wish I could be a good example for others. I wish I could be like you and Become a reason for people around to do good and be good. I so wish I could be like you.
         I hope, that one day, when I reach somewhere in my life, I'll atleast try becoming that mother that you are to all of us, I'll try becoming the mentor for people around me like you are, I'll try becomg a good omen for someone, I'll try becoming a good achiever like you are, I'll try becoming the reason for everyone's smile-lit faces  like you are.
                   Thankyou, thank you for being so generous and so amazing. Thank you for being a mother, a teacher, a mentor, a guiding star, a pillar of awesome-ness (sorry that's me being a typical teenager here) and everything else that you are. Thankyou from the depth of my heart, for being YOU!
                                                                                                                                     Your insane student,
                                                                                                                             of final year, KPGDCW
                                                                                                                                          7/4/2013


And I do not expect a lot to happen, just a smile across your kind face.
                           
                               

Just Vanished!

Between those things I vanish,
In those words and some phrases,
You would see me there, Vanished.

In all those moments and all those times,
When you see people happy and getting around,
You would see me there, Vanished.

Like an insect I could die, like a butterfly I could flutter,
But between the fluttering and dying,
You would see me there, Vanished.

Blinking my eyes and stopping the tears,
Trying to appear calm and strong,
While holding myself, you would see me there, Vanished.

Talking and laughing, playing around,
Doing everything that you'd do too,
You would see me there... Vanished!




Over and Out with a promise to bring something good to you next time!

And you would know.

And You would know in an instant...
You would know who is yours.
You would know who cares.
You would know who just says and who really acts.
The house of words would fall so hard.
The tower of act would only get stronger.
A time will come and you will realize, you will know.
Reality comes crashing down and hits you hard.
Those caring, will still be caring, those loving, will still be loving.
Just that a few names will be omitted.
Just that some people will be your history.
Just that some people will make it into the past.
Just that your heart will hurt alot-
But you will know, it's still a blessing.
It's still good. Because you got to know.
In disguise, you'll realize,
Who writes 'your's truly' and who really is.

AWARRRRDDDD!!

Assalam O Alaikum & greetings!
                                          How are you my people? How is Ramadan Kareem going? I hope it's nice.
I am proud to announce Ridx at Miss Ridx ;)  has given me an award.
She has an amazing blog and she is one of the most sweetest people I know on blogger. You all should visit her blog. It's Awesome!

It's Liebster award!

Thank you for the award! It's so kind of you! :)
I am answering the questions right away!

So her Questions are following and They are ALOT, yes as you scroll down you are going to see alot of questions so this is going to be a pretty long post!

Have you ever made a prank phone call? 

Oh Don't ask me! I did that when I was very young. I was staying at my cousin's place and we made lots of prank calls at 2 am! No body found out about us, still we never did that again, it was fun though! :D

Do you believe in karma?

 I do.

What is your perfect pizza? 

Pizza with LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS of cheese, some chicken, pepperoni and capsicum. Yum!

 
What is your first thought when waking up in the morning?

Literally First thought usually is : ganaa ganay se pehlay kalma parhna hai! LOL that's because when ever I wake up, my brain turns on some background music and that's pretty weird!


 
What is your first thought before you go to bed?   
Oh it's random. Sometimes praying that I get up on time next day, sometimes I make a list in my head of to-do notes for the next day, sometimes I think I should be munching some chocolate right now!

 

Do you get along with your family?

Yep!

Do you make wishes on shooting stars?   

I read Islamic history for shooting stars, since then, nop.

If you could go back and change one day, what would it be? 
Erm...I will have to change minds of people to change that one day, it's hard to answer!

Do you remember your dreams? 

Yeah, sometimes. I still remember some really weird and horrible nightmares which I had way back.

 
 

Are you a morning person or a night person? 
Both!

 

Do you have any phobias?  

Even if I have any, they are'nt discovered yet, so, No.

If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature what new animal would you 

 create?

I Wouldn't!


  

What's the most unusual conversation you've ever had?

I don't remember right now, but there are many!


 

If your parents hated your partner you currently loved would you ditch him or carry on with him despite the protests?  
I don't have a partner yet! ;)

And when I will have that would be through my parents *full desi* so No chances of that! 

 

Have you ever been professionally photographed?

No. 


 

Do you prefer blue or black inked pens?

Blueeeeeeeeeeeee!!! I love it! Also I think I write more neatly in blue.


 

Have you ever baked your own cake?

 My own Birthday cake? No, but I have baked cakes a lot of times.

What's your favorite smell/scent?

Baby scent and Indian Jasmine or Motiya.


 

Can you blow bubbles with bubblegum?

Yeaaaa!! :D
Andd It's fun! 

What was your favorite birthday?

19th Birthday was my favourite birthday because my friends came, we chilled out, it was a lot of fun! I'll never forget it!

Haiyyy Ridxy I'm tired now! :D I'll continue anyway!!

 

Can you curl your tongue?
I just tried after reading your question and my answer is : Yes, I can. It's so easy by the way! :p

 

If you could learn any language fluently what would it be?
Chinese and Persian!

 

What historical Figure would you love to see in 21st century life?

Lady Diana. and also Sir Allama Mohammad Iqbal, I wanted to see him in real when I was young!

As a kid were you ever frightened of a monster under the bed or in the cupboard?

I was frightened of monsters, yes, but not under the bed or inside the cupboard.



  

Do you like clowns?

I neither like them nor dislike.


 

Are you a clean or messy person?

Astonishingly both. I am particularly clean in few  things and I am real messy in some. I keep the balance. ;)



 

Can you play chess?
Yes I can. With all thanks to Chess Titans of Microsoft Corporation, Windows and slow internet connection.

 

What's your favorite Movie quote?

Such a zalim question. Manyyyyyy.

 

What's your favorite type of tree?
None. Should I have a favorite type of tree?!

If you could bankrupt one person or company who would it be?
No one. I am too forgiving! *batters lashes*

If you could steal one thing without consequence what would it be?

Let me change it I would steal for a day with out consequences, Okay?!

I'll head to chocolate factory and steal all the yummy chocolate, then I'll head to the Nestle juices and steal cartons of orange juices, next I'll go to a pizza shop and steal as many pizzas I can and also Russian salad, then I'll go to steal some extra cheasy Zinger and then I'll go steal a HUGE freezer to store all of it. I'm such a foodie! :p

books also came to my mind but No. I'll just buy books, I hate stealing them! 

Do you prefer shopping on the high street or online? 
Shopping High street, yea!

Would you ever want to learn to fly?

Yes, Yes, YESSSS!!

 

Do you often read your horoscope? 
Nop I don't believe in it so I don't.

Have you ever had a proper Tarot reading? 
No.

 

What's your favorite brand of newspaper?

Dawn.

Do you do your utmost for the environment? 

I Try to, yes.

Do you ever make your own greetings cards?

Hell YEA. I love doing that! It's totally another feeling when the card you're giving someone has been made by you. I like to give and receive self made cards, I feel like there are more emotions involved this way.




So that's that people... Adois!

Success, Satisfaction, Smiles

Success is not measured in money, it is measured in smiles.
Satisfaction is not measured in smiles, it is only measured by one's heart!

Story of pain, misery, grieve and then a smile.

She stood before the mirror. Her face, pale. Her color, yellow. Eyes, sunken in the sockets. She was so lost that it took a few moments to realize it was her in the mirror. She had become scary. She touched her face and then touched the mirror. Taking a deep breath in, she accepted the ugly reality, it was her. Loneliness whispered in her ears. Sadness stood beside her.

All alone, she was there, thinking why was she left all alone. Why did she had to face all of this, why was fate so brutal. She stood there. Her life ran through her mind. She wanted to cry. She wanted to shout. She wanted to do something. But she couldn’t. She just couldn’t shout. It felt like every emotion was stuck inside, deep inside. So deep she couldn’t take it out. She thought it was now a part of her. Enriched deep inside her soul.

Next moment, she couldn’t breath. She stood up and tried to open the window. Fresh air came in. sunlight came with it. A realization hit. She had’nt seen sunlight since a long time. She stood before the window taking deep breaths in. She put her hands in her hair. They were the only thing left in her body that was still beautiful. Thick, brown, shiny beautiful hair. Sun light made them look even more beautiful. She looked at her hair and smiled. That was her first smile after a long time. It felt like years that she had’nt used this expression. She felt good. She stood there and thought, is it necessary for the world around me to be okay so that I feel good? Or am I enough for myself to make me feel good? When fate is’nt that brutal, why am I making it seem so brutal? If I can smile now, I can do anything.

Those were the last moments of her misery, sadness, grieve. She had realized she was important too.





Inspired by a writer, I attempted this, hope you'll like it. The place where I took inspiration  from is
THIS. She is an amazing writer! 

Surprises

Victory, sometimes gets to you in the most unbelievable way, in unexpected times... Stop keeping expectations from life and along with the sorrows and a little bit of misery, you will get some beautiful surprises! Surprises of smiles, surprises of laughters, surprises of joy, surprises of peace.

First Birthday Guest Post By BFF.

Assalam O alaikum and greetings people!
It's been a year in june since I first created my blog. Wow!

So A very very *Happy Birthday* to my dear little blog! :)

*YAYS!*

Picture : google

Courtesy: google,com

I made these! *wink wink* :D

Here's A Guest Post By My BFF!
Thankyou for writing that for me!
I love you!

        

  Beautiful and simple are the words cross my mind as I open your blog.

" I vanish Here" is the name but my humble suggestion is to change it as " I Shine Here".

Your posts are such a crystal clear reflection of you and that is the best aspect of your blog.

It have been a year you are active on this blog so, congratulations dear!.

       

 I always wanted you to share your poetry your articles and your sketches with people but you and your stupid reserved nature. You and your private corner where others are not allowed until you permit. One fine day Allah Almighty bestowed you with a pinch of wisdom and you started blogging.

          

Keep writing Rafya because there are so many colors you have left, to put to the spin on. Please be regular and best of luck!!

Also I am on the look out for some guest posts.. People please throw in a comment and write a guest post for me!