I look back

Today...
Today I stop, I look back...
I see the long road that I have walked,
The paths I have crossed,
 
I see
The thorns that bled my feet,
The petals that were soft beneath,

I see,
Excruciating pain in my heart,
A smile on my face,

I see,
My soul drowning in distress,
My body jumping with cheerfulness,

I see,
So many things,
Disappointments, troubles, aches, hurts,
Heartbreaks, sorrows, misery, dejections,

I see,
Life, death, nothingness,

I see,
Strength, power and prayers,


I also see,
Happiness, joy, love, tranquility,
Memories, beauty, wonder, delights

Peshawar School Attack- Reasons, Facts and Islam

Assalam O Alaikum And Greetings,
                                                        Today, As I write these lines, my heart is hurting so bad and tears in my eyes are unstoppable. A heart wrenching incident shook the world yesterday, attack on APS (Army Public School) Peshawar. I live far away from that city, 1362 km approx, but it felt as if the pain traveled with the air. Each time I watched the news, each time I cried. When I, sitting miles away from the place of horrifying brutality, couldn't control my tears, I have no idea how those parents felt whose children were martyred. I can not imagine, when a distressed parent would hear the words of their child's death, what pains they went through. My heart-felt condolences to those families who suffered. 


The question arises, as to why were these attacks carried? What prompted those evils to kill innocent children? A rumor is that they were killed because they wanted to get education. NO, THAT WAS NOT THE REASON. This is a misconception.
The real reson is, there is currently an operation going on in Waziristan, located in north of Pakistan, called Zarb e Asb. The operation is against Taliban. These attacks were the result of that operation, it was a backfire from Taliban. Our hearts bleed. We are fighting the world's fight alone. We are bearing consequences of that fight. We are burned and killed and injured. Our souls have been stabbed, and yet when ever a Pakistani travels anywhere in the world, he is categorized as a terrorist, even though he himself is suffering from terrorism. This is not just our fight, we are fighting on behalf of the whole world. But we are not understood.


Now, let me tell you, whatever bullshit those taliban say, they are not Pakistanis, they are not Muslims and they are not humans either. There are so many misconceptions about Muslims and Islam because of those pathetic, heartless evils. 

Let me tell you all, what Islam really is and what it teaches.

Qur'an (The Holy Book of Muslims) states:



“Whoever kills a person [unjustly]…it is as though he has killed all mankind. And whoever saves a life, it is as though he had saved all mankind.” (Qur’an, 5:32)


The Prophet Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him) prohibited the killing of non-Muslims who have a peace treaty with the Muslims. He said:
 
“He who kills a non-Muslim (who has a peace treaty) shall not smell the fragrance of Paradise, and its smell is sensed from a distance as far as forty years journey.” [collected in Sahih al-Bukhari and Muslim]



Even in the battlefield, the Prophet (Peace Be Upon Him)  gave strict instructions and outlawed the killing of non-combatants and innocent civilians.

A Hadith ( saying of Beloved Prophet Peace and Blessings be Upon Him) Goes: 

 "Fight in the name of God, but do not kill old men, children and women…” 
[collected in Sahih al-Bukhari]


Islam is the religion of peace and prosperity. It condemns brutality and wrongdoings , Specially regarding women and children. Prophet Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him) loved children very much, even on His deathbed, He said: Take care of your women and children.


I hope I have cleared misconceptions about Islam.
Those people who attacked school in Peshawar aren't even humans, let alone Muslims.


I would like to thank everyone who stood with us yesterday. Your words help us heal our wounds, knowing someone is with us.


Heart-felt prayers and condolences go out to the families who suffered and to the children who are alive but will remain mentally disturbed because of such a horrifying accident they went through. I am praying for you and will continue to do so for rest of my life. May ALLAH heal your wounds, lessen your pains and help you with your life ahead. Aameen.
Though I know your hearts will be stuck to that day, moving on are just words.


Despite of everything we have been through, we are all together. We stand stronger then ever and one day soon, we will see a happy and peaceful Pakistan. No one can ever bring it down. Each one of us will fight till our last breath for a better nation, for a better world.
 
May ALLAH bless us with peace on our lands and humanity in our hearts. Aameen

I hope I never have to write about such thing ever again.

Sending peace, love and prayers.

Believing in the Miracle of Your Own Soul

Assalam O Alaikum And Greetings!
                             Today, I want to talk about an insanely pathetic line I came across on facebook, which made my mind cringe with annoyance. The line was in Urdu transcript and read as 'Aurat ki qismat ka inhesar uskay husn e surat, husn e seerat, taleem, samajhdari ya mohabbat par nahien bal k uski zindagee mein shamil honay walay mard per hota hai' (The fate of a woman does not depend on her beauty, nature, education, maturity or love but rather depends on the man who enters her life).

I cannot believe such state of minds still exist. Why have the 'fate' succumbed to the men? Why have the brains gotten caged to marriage/men?


I feel sorry for the one who wrote it and the one who believes in it. I am NOT at all saying women should go wild with freedom but this..? This is something that should not be taught, not anymore. Each and every woman should believe in their selves, believe that they do have a life of their own, a personality and a mind set. They should believe in their selves before believing in the men they get attached to. Believe in your talents, believe in your skills, believe in your heart. Know your strengths and weaknesses, know your own power, spark lights with in yourself. You have a soul and a life even before a spouse enters your life. Do you lose it afterwards? Or do you not have it before?

I am not saying that you should over dominate/ over look your better halves, drive them crazy with the demands of freedom or anything. I do acknowledge the fact that spouses have a huge role in our lives. Women and men both have a lot of duties when it comes to their other halves, which should be fulfilled with a smile not only on the face but in the heart too. I am just saying no one should belittle themselves in process. I am trying to convey that women should not succumb to being a nothing after the addition of a man in their lives.

I think we women have a greater responsibility than men in shaping our society because we are the ones who create and bring up generations, I want those generations, irrespective of males and females, to believe in the miracle of their own souls. I want, that women raise a generation that is full of hope and sunshine, full of talent and encouragement. I want our generations to look forward to life rather then only day dreaming about their respective spouses. When women will believe in themselves only then, will they be able to have stronger relationships and will better understand their spouses. When you know yourself better, only then will you be able to know the other person. Believing in yourself is important in building relationships.

Believe in yourself.

In the end, I would like to give a shout out to a very special friend, Ms Zaidi for doing what she did. It took bigger space in my heart then you know, Thank you for caring! 

Hope to see you soon again! :)
Sending love and hope and smiles your way! :)

Random Thoughts About Life

Assalam o Alaikum and Greetings!
                                               So, my dear dear readers, as the name suggests this is going to be a random array of thoughts jotted down in comfort of my nest in a cold December afternoon.



I think when it comes to relationships, possibilities and chances are two different things. They somehow don't sync in this context.



Happiness leads it's own ways. It does'nt really depend on situations or materialistic things. If you are willing, you can be happy with nothing in your hands. The strangest thing about happiness is, it increases when you spread it. Also, it's contagious. You see one of your loved one happy, there is no way you are not going to feel your heart jumping with joy.


The way you perceive things is the way you will lead your life. That is the reason why everyone emphasizes on being optimistic. You take things in a positive manner and you lead life with positivity.


Life doesn't stop for you or for anyone else. It goes on, as it has to go on. The people at the end, only remain in heart.



Sometimes, you keep so much in your heart, it starts hurting like never before. A good way to channel your emotions and energies out is very necessary or the burden on the heart will only get heavier and you will end up stuck somewhere you don't want to be, without anymore energy to move on.



It's very important to cherish people in your life. Thank you is a word you should constantly be saying to those around you. It lets others know you don't take take them for granted, you value them and the things they do for you are appreciated. It strengthens your bond, gives it meaning.



You see, there is a thing about human beings. As much as we crave for love, we crave for appreciation too. We need appreciation as we go on. We will drop down if not appreciated, our talents get covered with hopelessness. Learn to appreciate things and people around you.



Love should always be expressed.



Things don't Just happen. Everything, every moment, every event happens for a reason. It just takes us a really long while to reach to reason. But as we go through life, we should always keep in mind, there was a way things happened, it shall be worthed in the end.



And ladies and gentlemen, that is that for now. Hope to see you soon again. Thank you so much for your appreciation and kind words. It gives me a reason to write and more importantly, a reason to smile.
More things will be coming your way soon. A lot of big updates of my life too.
Oh and did I tell you all? There has been an addition to my wonderful family. My niece was born in October. She is the joy of my heart and the twinkle of my eye.


Hope to see you soon again. :)
Sending smiles and love.

Hope

As she walks down the path,

In the dull sun-set light,

Wondering where it all went wrong,

What was the mistake,

Her hair in a lose hair tie,

Her face bare of all the gloss,

Her eyes pale,

Questioning herself she wandered around,

Thinking of her past,

Leaving so many scars,

But somehow, somewhere in her heart,

Hope still lives,

Keeping her self intact,

Keeping her sane,

It's hope that still lives.

Self-Obsession.

Assalam O Alaikum And Greetings fellow people!

How are you doing? So.... Its been long since I posted anything. I am back in Karachi now Alhumdulillah and basically lazing around (reason for no-pictorial-post) and sleeping and eating. So I decided I should interact and post something, how ever small it may be.
This is a self-obsessed post which means you will get to know some completely random facts about me.

• I love Great Britain's accent. I can literally sit and listen to them all day.
• One day, I would like to visit Turkey and Australia and Venice.
• I LOVE roaming around the house in my PJ's.
• My favorite T-shirt is the biggest one I have got (and the softest one).
• When something is super nice I use the word 'best-est' for it, which, I know is completely wrong but... I use it anyway.
• I shiver really bad when surprised.
• I dont say out loud what I feel but I write, which is more intense then saying out loud.
• I love having those deep, intense and meaningful conversations with some of my family members and my best friends.
• I write random stuff and expect to read it after years and laugh on it, but what happens is, when I read my old stuff now, I get embarrassed AND say this alot 'Seriously?'.
• I get obsessed with colors for a while and in that while most of the things I have are of that color. These days its Royal Blue by the way.
• I LOVE kids.
• I REALLY DONT LIKE airplanes, flights, airports. I hate goodbyes. I dont like long, boring flights (they dont even serve nice food most of the time)
• As much as I say I love food, I dont eat as much.
• My best friend has crazy plans for my future.
• I love recieving letters, like, hand written letters.
• Hand-made things attract me more then anything else. It is a gesture of the fact that a person is so caring they made something for you themselves.
• I cry even during animated movies like Lion King. I cry while reading too. It looks like my tears are just waiting to come out!
• I love when I get to watch a really cool series with my family. We've watched so many together like One Tree Hill, Grey's Anatomy, House MD and Castle.

That's that. Hope you have a good week and a great weekend!
Sending Smiles your way! :)

Eid Mubarak

Assalam O Alaikum fellows!
A very hearty Eid Mubarak to you all. This Eid I realized something more. Eid without home is no eid at all. I miss home alot more now! But I will be returning soon!
Anyway, I hope you all have a wonderful Eid!
Dont forget to pray for Ummah that is in severe pain these days. That is all we can do for them!

Hopes, Omens and Amusements

Assalam O Alaikum and greetings!
                                                        How are you all doing? I am doing great. I am in Saudi Arabia these days and this is an amazing place truely. A pictorial tour might come to your end when I go back to Karachi, Pk in august. As for now, I am enjoying my time here.
                           The thing that influences me most are words. Words spoken or written are very influential though in my case written words are huge and important. Usually when I cant communicate something directly, I'd write it down for that person and you guys actually have seen that example here on the blog. I read the book Alchemist By Paulo Coehlo long time ago and Omens were discussed profusely in it. Now I am experiencing this strangely amazing thing, I am thinking a negative aspect in my mind or I am feeling dishearted or low, somehow words, strangthening-words show up, somehow they do. It is someone's whatsapp profile picture, A verse from Quran on facebook, a quote picture on facebook or just somehow words pop up and it's just so... strange and.. beautiful. One example that I could tell you all is I keep a really small paper below my mobile cover and my cover is transparent so I can actually see the paper beneath it easily. I write things to myself that I think if I ever read would give me positivity, some people call me crazy for doing this. The line I wrote on that paper is: 'Tomorrow will be yours... Don't give up'. I'd lost that paper when I came here. Now I was thinking how I try getting over one bad thing and the second comes up and how I am just tackling it and stuff and I look at the floor and I see this paper which has these words: 'Tomorrow will be yours... Don't give up' It's the same piece of paper I thought I lost. And I am JUST AMUSED. I am awe-struck wondering Has this been happening since forever or am I so late to notice? Anyways I picked my paper up stuck it under my cover again. See, the thing is Never lose hope. I know in my heart, God Almighty has been sending those good omens, letting me know, He knows and understands. I feel blessed, Alhumdulillah! & fellows this is just one example I have given you, there are numerous happening that I don't even remember.
                                I know, things happen, you loose people, you fail at things, alot of stuff goes crazy bad, but hey, dont lose hope! Times will change, things will get better, they might never be the same again, but they will be okay. Perfect just comes once!
I know I got a lot of catching up to do with you all and I am sorry I interact alot less then I used to. I litterally find it hard to share things now, which is odd. I dont know how but during this last paragraph something bumped into my mind. You all writers out there know, when you are writing something, you have a specific tone, voice for it and then somebody is reading something written by you and they are not reading it like that and you go thinking in your mind: Man! They got it wrong!! LOL It happens with me. I write something and I read it in one particular way and then someone else reads it in entirely different way and I say to myself: They killed my thing!!
Anndddd this brings me to thinking if you even got my joke or not!
                             Alot of times I try being cooler and think of scheduling my posts but as soon as I write one I just can not wait to throw it out there and get y'all's reviews on it and the page views and stuff! I don't even know if it's 'cooler' to schedule a post or not.. Err.. I just wrote it, just like that!


I guess I talked alot. So for now, I am going away. Hey! Ramadan is appraoching, So Ramadan Mubarak\Ramadan Kareem to all my Muslim fellows out there. I hope and pray you all make most of it and get great rewards for all your deeds and get to enjoy a fabulous Eid! Don't forget to pray for the Ummah,specially for the Ummah in trouble (Palestine, Kashmir and others).


May ALLAH grant us all Emaan!

Proudly Presenting: Changing perspectives on Muslim Women

A student in the US made a video for her project, which shows my blog giving out the message that Muslim women are not caged, that we are as free as we should be. I realize this is a greater opportunity than I thought, Social media makes more difference than it seems like, it changes perspectives and thoughts of many. I will try bringing up more positivity and goodness about Muslims and Pakistan so that people would know, we're good folks as normal and as humane as we should be!

Hey, Facebookers

To everybody who is here through my status,
Boo yaaahhhhh!! :D
Yes, Here this is, my place.
I know it's a bit too late to be telling you (soon-to-be-two-years Precisely)
But I have never been a very open person. I have always been shy and reserved about my writings and drawings. Before you point out a mistake, do know, that I am still new at this. Before you say its good.. well.. go ahead and say because I know I am awesome! :D
Thankyou that you dropped by, mushkil waqt mein wesay bhi apnay hi kaam atay hain, aap logon k anay se meray pageviews aur khoon dono bohat barhay hain, Shukriya! :D
Aur ye k itni casual posts main yehan kerti nahien hun, yahan meri shakhsiyat khaasi mukhtalif hai, Magar for you... :p
Now that you are here, explore, I hope you all will like it, not that it is extra amazing or that I write real good. But only because this place is created with hope, dreams and love.
Enjoy!

I see you

When passes a shadow, thats full of light
I see you.
When I sleep, in my dreams,
I see you
Every passing moment, every passing day,
I see you.
In pictures divine, back in the sands of time,
I see you.
When the dark covers the light, when nothing comes to sight,
I see you.
Not a word, not a tear, not a cry,
But, its all true,
That I see you.
I see you smile, I see your pride,
I see you, even in the times not so bright.
When after a tiring day, I lay on my bed,
Giving me hope, I see you.
When things go wrong and people fight,
Helping me up again, I see you.
My tears have dried, cleared my eyes,
I feel you near and I see YOU!

I am still here

Assalam O Alaikum And Greetings,
                                               So Sorry to have been away for such a long time, I just don't feel like sharing anymore. Times have changed, so has my perspective about a lot of things.

I have not been writing lately, not even in my personal diary anymore. I just cant feel the same way about it. Before, writing used to give me peace and comfort. It was a way I could let my inner storms out, now, its all different. It seems like writing is no more able to give me what I want, my inner storms are so deep inside I cant find a way to let them out, they are etched within and I am not really able to find a passage to let them out. But it doesn't mean this blog means anything less to me. This blog made me able to do and think what I could not have otherwise. This place has a magic of its own and nobody else will ever be able to understand. This blog is my baby and it means a lot to me!!

Life after October has been harder then any part of me could imagine. There's been happy moments too, yes, but incomplete. Every happiness, every occasion, every event is incomplete. Just when I started thinking my life is perfect, everything became imperfect forever. From that day on, I am and will never be able too label any event or any thing as 'perfect'. The word is long gone from my dictionary.

But I am happy, at least everything is visible through dreams. This is all I have now.. This is all I will ever have from now on.